suicidalghosts:

I’ve been mentally ill for so long now that sometimes I don’t even realise how bad it is anymore

Like I sit here with my anxiety bubbling away for no reason and I’m like ‘this is fine’

And I’m considering suicide like ‘this is normal’

I isolate myself constantly like ‘how am I going to avoid everyone today’

And I walk around in a dissociated state, not remember what I’ve done each day thinking ‘it must be Halloween soon’ even though its April

This is my ‘norm’ and that’s why I feel like I’m never going to recover