When you want to tell someone why you reacted the way you did but also realize that there is really no point to it at all.

When you start having a panic attack and your sister takes something you said calming the wrong way and it just spikes even higher and she realizes it and walks away for a few moments so that I’m alone in an aisle so I can try to calm down
And tbh it didn’t really help at all but I really appreciated the effort

I’m now home and on the verge of tears for no apparent reason and I’m trying not to hyperventilate

I hate how my family is pro lgbt, unless it’s one of their own.
Apparently I can’t tell my grandfather that I have a girlfriend because he’ll blow a gasket and probably keel over dead
My mother’s first words after I told her were “so what? You’ve given up on men completely then??? Is that what you’re telling me? I know mike hurt you but why a girl?”
Like??? AND SHE STILL TELLS ME TO KEEP MY OPTIONS OPEN WHILE IM SEEING HER?????