I had crossed the street today, knowing that there were cars coming

I knew that there was a high chance of one not stopping on time

and I was okay with that

that realization almost scared me

Most would just say ‘omg think of your friends and family, how would they feel?’ and I honestly think it wouldn’t make that huge of an impact on them. they get on just fine without me now, I even bother someone closest to me to the point where he hardly ever wants to see my face or be around me.

idek know what to do or even think about that